October 26th 2013,
Hello friends, I am going to tell you how a very good night turned to the nightmare. And when I say “nightmare”, it is not a word I use thoughtlessly.
1) On Thursday evening, DATE with a girl of Adopte at her home. It was a rather hilarious interaction. In fact, I contacted her hastily on Sunday, 13, I have taken her number after a rather wonderful conversation.
– She offers you the possibility of discussing with her. Do not hesitate to send her a message to try to land in her basket !
– hello Caro ! Ah I am satisfied that you confirm me! Well I would have liked that you send the first message but nobody is perfect…
– And would not my first message be this one? Attractive master’s degree of the conditional, I recognize it to you
– First sentence correct, in addition you flatter me, I am willing to continue to speak with you 😀
On the other hand, it is forbidden to ask for hings like in a questionnaire: where do you come from, do you like carrots, etc.
– But I preferred to know if you like carrots, it can be a means of pressure if it is not the case, I heard that “for the rabbit, the carrot is the worst embodiment of the evil “. What do you think about it?
– I think that I am maybe a rabbit because carrots give me not catholic ideas.
– Being religious, my ideas are clear as can be. But not with carrots, I give them to you, yes, really.
– If I come to your place it will be so that you cook me something with carrots not to make l love. Do you want to chat on Facebook, it shall be nicer.
– It was absolutely not my intention and if I want to say something in this sense, I have a vocabulary which will allow me to do so haha. Regrettably, no Facebook for me. Twitter? But the messages will not go faster than here.
– I will be disconnected at 6 pm , love!!! (I have a free account) please send a first original message and I shall answer you 06********
She did not answer my messages for a few days. Then wrote me just like that last Sunday (the 20). We a little discussed by SMS. I was then inspired I suggested her making her a massage with the light of candles, I am so romantic ! She said OK, that we could meet on Friday evening. Except that not, I was busy thus I negotiated on Thursday evening. She wanted that we go out to have a drink, I said no. She wanted that we see each other rather at my place then, I said “no at yours”. All the indicators in the green, she sent me a message at 8 am in the morning Thursday so that I have her address. I smelt the motivated girl, really, nevertheless I don’t like counting my chickens before they are hatched. I thus turned up at her home at about 8:30 pm in the doorway : a kiss in the neck, I took the hand, she squeezed it and kept her. I asked if I had to take off my shoes, she said yes, I asked if I had to take off my other clothes, she said “not now”. After 10 minutes I was fingering her, after 15minutes she started sucking me. I pretended to get a foothold like never, I encouraged her. It was good all the same. Later I screwed her on the sofa bed. I wonder if she really wanted a massage in fact, héhéhé. In brief, the small banker in tailor, bobbed hairstyle, the authoritarian face (the kind of almost-thirty-year old who deserves her dose of do), it is checked. Having been blocked at my parent’s to study since the end of September, I will thus not finish Virgin of October.
2) Champagne Showers in a club with Padawan as a wingman. We spent a very good night. One of the organizers who likes what I write made us dupe the line, had 20 bimbos there who grumbled in the square meter. We stayed a long moment with a group of girls (it was not some caviar but they were not too bad, big liqueur brandies and were hungry). We approached them with an awesome “do you take some pleasure tonight?
– yes 😀
– do you want more ?
– heu I don’t know heu
– did you brush your teeth ?
– yes
– me too ! we kiss ?” And there I found myself with a dead woman of hunger who made every effort to clean me the inter-dental space with her tongue. Padawan close by connected her friend but that did not work. I say to the tall bitch endowed with a hallucinating low neck (the one that I was kissing) “tell me, do you wants to make a threesome at my place with my buddy?
– what ?! I can have both of you ?! Ah yesssssssss. (On the tone of : it is the deal of the century!!!)” Then, she started kissing Padawan… and me, I took care of her friend. I did again the “did you brush your teeth” line (I will copyright it) and, ho god, it worked. We warmed well them both then thanks to the sexual energy, Padawan eventually kissed also the second chick. Thus here we were, we were next to the bar and we fiddled with them, and we were exchanging them and everything. We thus logically negotiated a foursome. One was really hot, the second I felt her feverish but she would have followed because I suggested licking her during 20 minutes. A real bargain for her! In brief, their third friend turned up with a guy, and she passionately kissed her two friends. As a consequence, I tried a magnificent “me too PLEASE” thus she turned to me, maintained my eye contact, I supported her EC… She looked down the first one. I endured more sexual tension than her, she submitted, kissclose. We little eat each other’s mouth, it was nice. It was the only one in my size moreover, the two others were giants. But well, she left with her guy who got nothing. Fuxelife. In brief, at the moment they wanted to go to the toilet, I asked if we could screw them in the crappers and they said no. I asked for the color of their underwear: they revealed them to us but did not want to show us their tits then we let them leave because we wanted to put them “in the refrigerator” a little so they realize the luck they almost had. In any case, we said to ourselves that we were later going to see them again. Meanwhile, Padawan approached a brown girl with beautiful blue eyes, tall and thin. That happened very fast, he approached with “kiss my buddy.
– No he is ugly. It is rather you that would interest me.
– so kiss me.
– No it is you the man, it belongs to you to kiss the first one.” Thus OK, I learnt that I was ugly. Besides, she added that I hurt her so much I was ugly. The big deal : I set much worse in the mouth and next to that I screwed chicks twice better than her. I live it in a good way, this kind of remark slides on me as a penis would slide in the vagina of a woman fountain. I am a kind of “Chuck Bass the sexual” and Padawan is rather like “Nate the handsome guy” : it is not the same kind of charm, that’s it. But it was the silly bitch in any case, who is frustrated and disturbed : which girl would say that about the buddy of a guy whom she has just met ? Well, I left them together and went to speak to the DJ. Then, I wasted my time with a girl who was a headache to me, she wanted me to give her fags and did not let me alone. I don’t like the hazy and then well, I had already fucked tonight, and I had a foursome feverish but solid threesome on the light. The thing is that the bitch (the one who had bit tits and low neck next to her nipples) has probably seen Padawan kissing the blue-eyes girl because she left… I was disappointed, but well, with Pada we shall destroy a girl together or then we shall destroy 2 girls at the same time and we exchange them. It’s said! At the end, Padawan wanted to take the number of his silly bitch but she answered “do you want to have sex?
– No I sleep at a friend’s this evening
– Then give me your number.
– I don’t give my number so easily.
– Then you are very stupid, go away, I don’t like not the pussies who take themselves for princesses.” Well… I have to say that Padawan improved his Game, it is really notable and this is just the beginning 😉
3) By returning around 4 o’clock, Padawan walked me back and we settled comfortably on the pavement in front of my house. We sat quiet to debrief the evening. At the end of quarter of an hour, we saw a guy who approached us by running. Because a lot of people asked us fags and everything, we didn’t pay more attention than that and especially we were not enough wary seen that it is all the same a busy main avenue and that there is some light. When he arrived at my level, he gave me a big kick of sole in the head by surprise, I broke the window behind then Padawan who looked somewhere else believed that it was an irritated guy who had just put a kick in the window. I received another kick in the head before understanding what was happening and shouting “Padawan”. There, he got up and engaged in combat with this bastard who persecuted me. One ugly man, tall and fine, the skin matte Arabic or Indian type and long hair, a sweet dirties on the back. I also got up, completely sounded and a big guy, like half-european half-Arabic, even taller than the first one, skin head approached me. I didn’t know what he wanted at first sight and I was sounded: he put me a punch in nose directly. I began to piss the blood, I saw my own blood spattering and flowing like water but fuxelife, I finally put myself in position of fight and I said “but we don’t know you, we never did anything to you.
– no need to know you”. I managed to adorn a punch, I know it because this morning I have a great pain in the thumb. Meanwhile, Padawan dominated well the lean, I guess that he destroyed his jaw. The thing is that this drug-addict had eyes wide open, and did not feel pain: he got up every time and Pada eventually hurt in the wrist due to knocking him. Padawan then attacked the big one, he put him on the ground and I was able to get free. He would have been able to crush his mouth against the ground but he was kind. Maybe too much because these sons of bitches deserved that we cure them of the desire to assault people but needs to know that in France if you defend yourself and that you really hurt the guy, he can lodge a complaint against you and you are annoyed (the law says that the answer must be proportioned, in the practice it is the one who makes most damages who is wrong). I took out my keys and went towards to my door, I thought that he followed me except that in fact it was the cocaine addict with long hair. Padawan spoke with two other Arabic who had stayed behind (they filmed the scene for YouTube) and who advised “run away, they are high, they do that to have fun”. Then Padawan sprinted, whereas the big one got up and the 4 began running after him. He crossed fortunately rather quickly a police patrol “Sir, it is necessary to dress again, it is forbidden to walk topless.
– I would like to but I have been assaulted and they destroyed my t-shirt.” Then here we were, the dog unit tried to find them but unsuccessfully. Fire brigades came to find us and we spent 4 hours in the emergencies of the hospital for exams. So : He has the broken wrist and scratches on the face. I have the broken nose, two beautiful black eyes under eyes, a sprain in the thumb and they gunned down my Jules shirt . Then, we spent 3 hours (without lying) to the commissionership. The cops knew very well who were these guys, it was not the first time they assaulted people, but they cannot arrest them because no flagrante delicto (but that did not prevent them from treating me like if I was the aggressor while talking to me curtly and by looking for the slightest small details of my story which could contradict themselves). The thing is that usually, this group of 4 leaves their victims KO on the ground and robs them. Then we can say that we went out well there especially that last week beat up a pregnant woman. Three things there I don’t want to imagine :
– If they had a weapon (knife or gun), it is sure that we stayed there. I read in their eyes that they had no limit.
– If they had knocked out Padawan by surprise at the beginning instead of me, I would not have been able to defend him as well as he did for me. I am not black belt.
– If the two who were too cowardly to fight had also come, in 4 against 2 we had no chance… They were not drunk or high, they were maybe their dealers.
– If they had not attacked US but rather the group of girls who arrived later in the street, they would have finished raped on the pavement.
Then here we are, on one side we can be really competent in the communication, the psychology, the influence. It is useful and I have already defused quite a lot of conflicts like that. I already had to give knocks but it was totally different: once in box a guy wanted to assault me and because he was drunk he fell alone when I touched him and another time in the street we were 4 against 4 and I had just put my knee in a guy, my buddies had taken care of the others! But there, it was a totally random aggression, it was the jungle, and I paid it. No logic if it is not the law of the strongest. Thus here we are, needs to develop also our bodies. Thanks to Pada I have a quite healthy lifestyle, I even built muscle, I think that this is why I so well handled the knocks: Seriousness I took 4 or 5 knocks in the face and I felt nothing, I remained lucid and I tried to find a solution so that we get out of it (here is a good reason for not drinking). Well, needs to become aware that it is a question of survival to create muscle and to know how to fight. Certainly, I have a buddy coach in seduction who had a group of servicemen: the guys were animals but in front of the women, they were pussies. Except that I think that even in seduction it can play, the girl can smell when she is really safe with a guy. It is maybe what I need to work on the most. The cop who took our testimony exposed us her point of view and I share it with you because it is interesting “all these stupid people who say that you should not stigmatize, it is really the ones to who nothing happened. On Sunday, one of our colleagues was stabbed in the eye up to the brain, he died while he just proceeded to an identity check. No one speaks about it, but about the <poor> Leonarda everybody speak about it eh. ” The morality is: learn how to fight, build muscle, have a food which will maintain you in shape: we do not know neither when nor where nor who can try to kill you nor why. It is just a question of survival from now with this too overliberal government, and still I don’t live in Marseille but in a renowned soft city. Then, needs not to fall in ” ah well it is top dangerous I don’t go out from now”, it would be to let them win. Just needs to be careful and ready if necessary to have a talent in front of these leeches who live only to annoy the others and who will not even be worried by the justice. Fucking country… and those who are not conscious of that are idiots. The reality is that it is not the country of Care Bears and those who will just affect you to pass the time will not be guys integrated into the society, who have a job, etc.. It will be resentful people who just hate you because you because you have a good job or because you are well-dressed or, or because of your ethnic origins, etc. You try to integrate them and to give them money and everything to give you good consciousness, but they hate you and at the first opportunity they will stab you in the back to rape your wife. Just be aware. Besides it had been one moment since I said to myself that in the evening, there were not so many girls than before and that they were much more wary. The field became really difficult here… and we cannot blame the chicks: they do not feel safe with all the news we can read in newspapers… and all the hidden facts. I cannot stop not living the scene in my head. It’s like if it was not real except that today I have one fucking headache which reminds me that, no, it was not nightmare but the reality. Some people advised me to move because this crazy people know where I live. I don’t really know what to think of it. So, we have to go back to the hospital in order to pay a colossal sum in exchange for three bandages and some radios. In brief, only annoy in perspectives. I feel the hatred. I want to punch someone or something. Or that Virginie comes and gives me a hug !!! What reassures me it is that even the mentalist is powerless when people become violent, he calls his sturdy buddies.
But I am going to try to transform my hatred into a positive thing, and from next week onwards I am going to practice tae kwon do with Padawan. That does not appear to me to be any more an option, because I don’t want to live by ignoring the reality. Finally, that was an electric shock for me which will make me move forward in my life. Fucking the girls, knowing which values we look for, it is good… But it is finally only a stage of the personal fulfillment towards better lifestyle one. Maybe not even the most important. And it is really THAT which is important: the lifestyle. In “to survive and reproduce” there is “to survive” and it is better to chose to “live good”.
Hope you will get my message. May the God of the Game make us open the eyes !
PS: don’t tell meI am racist because I said that they were Arabic (one of my best buddies is called Hafid). It is just a fact. If that had been idiots of riffraff typified European or African or slanting eyes, I would have said so all the same.